Sometimes I wonder, as one ages, our thoughts become more complex. Is this our wisdom or limitation?
I wonder a lot. I think a lot. I guess everyone does as well, but to their own extent.
Sometimes, I get so caught up with everything around me, I forgot what's life, what life means to me. And perhaps I think too much.
This period is highly spiritual to me. I've never connect with my inner self so intensely before. It scares me but there's something more than just that.
And life become so overwhelming, sometimes you just wish things were simpler, your mind to be less complex. Different people perceive situations, issues different, and take on different approaches. And when we've decided that we just want to call it quits, what does it mean to each one of us? My Mom says, "If that's the approach, you wouldn't be able to prove your worthiness, your true value." But I ask, "To whom we want to prove? Someone who let you down, someone who upsets you, someone you love dearly, or yourself?" And how would we truly know what is the origin? When we start being honest with yourself? Sometimes that's not sufficient. Our unconscious being is constantly blocked, and I believe the true being of one is within our unconscious being. Our conscious being has friended doubt, the traitor within ourselves which we constantly hear in our minds (and our environment).
I still have no idea where the path is leading me to, but I perhaps have understood the lesson already.